John is still very cold and indifferent to me. But I can stick it out as long as he can. It is not my duty to advance affection and I am not going to do it!
I have explained to him I need it. I have coaxed and begged - but I shall never do it again.
I think I have been successful in being cheerful without appearing to force it.
I have stopped feeling sorry for myself and am rather happy.
Mr. D. took me for a long beautiful ride today. I thrive in his insincere flattery! I love it.