Movies again. "Just Another Blonde." Love is a game of chance, like gambling, at which the player loses. "If two play - they both can't lose. They both win," John says and they do. I should wear all of my dresses cut as low as this one because you should have the advantage of all my beauty. You made me say "yes." Did I say it because I wanted to or because I knew that you would not take advantage of it? Both. I stood at the door so you could not get out. But you had me cornered. You always corner me and make me give me! Do I want to? Yes! If I did not want to I know I could be strong enough not to! Was I sorry I said "yes." No indeed! And a kiss on my throat was because I said yes. And kisses on my lips, my throat, my fingers and for tomorrow evening when I will not see you.
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I hate things so material as quarterly statements! And I am so tired that I had to break my engagement wih the Ashemeads (?). I wanted so much to hear the Savvy G at the Academy of Music! Why is it that when I am so tired I always think of you, John. Everybody has been teasing me about going to the banquet with Ed. Walt insisted on the first dance. I wish John that I were going with you and that every dance were yours.
April 20 - May 21 (cont.) - Make good biologists, astronomers, scientists, or any calling requiring memory. Generous but bitter enemies. Loyal to friends, fearless, and kind. Find best companions among people of Cancer, Leo and Virgo. At last an evening at home. The first one for a week or more. And how I miss you John. I have enjoyed the evening with my family, though. Mother cut out a new dress for me. Perhaps I can finish it by Saturday evening. I wonder, John, what you are doing tonight. I hope you found at least one long (?) moment on which to think of me.
Fate is teasing me. I have waited patiently since Saturday to see you and fate sent you to me but has taken you away again. When can I have you to keep. Some day when you go you will take me with you. This is the first opportunity we have had to talk of the play Sat. "It was so damned real." You said that you saw only two actors and they were you and I! Suppose we had lived at that time! You are mine now, you would have been then. "My Yankee lover," "my southern sweetheart."
YOUR FORTUNE BY THE STARS - IV: April 20 - May 21 - Taurus is your sign, Venus your planet. Astral colors, red and lemon yellow. Emotional, theoretical, not inclined to argument but hard to convince, inclined to brood but not complain. Have strong likes and dislikes, endurance and excellent memory. Compliments galore. Our little play "came off" beautifully. I really surprised myself by knowing my part so well. The strawberries and ice cream were some good too. The floral decorations were lovely. As busy as I have been, John, I have been thinking of you. I wonder if you have thought of me, your actress and rebel sweetheart!
Rehearsal. What a lovely place Mrs. Willit's home is. Her grandfather clock is beautiful and her frier table is exactly like Manie and Jennie's. What a silly pair Harriet and I are when we get together. The Coca-cola was good anyway, and very refreshing after hard work. Some box of candy Jimmie gave Marion.
March 21-April 20 (cont.) - Have mind reading power. Generally too impetuous. Earnest, make good. Great speakers, preachers, lawyers, journalists and teachers. Strong, quick, sharp of sight. Most congenial friends are people of Cancer, Leo and Virgo. Like a person growing old, I am dreaming of the past. Perhaps it is just comparing past evening. The evening we went in through the blizzard to see "The Student Prince" and last evening in the rain to see "My Maryland." On Jan. 15 the snow was worthwhile. You carried me through the blizzard, the first time you ever held me in your arms. Last evening you lifted me over the porch rail and when we came in you held me in your arms and kissed me over and over again. I went to C.C. with Elizabeth. Came home with Eliz., Clare, Kathryn, Charles, myself, and Ed Doherty. What a line he has. "Does the moon affect me?" Wants a date, but he hasn't a chance!
My Maryland. What a powerful musical romance. I always hated Barbara Frietchie until tonight. A traitor? Never! It was all because she loved Capt. Trumbull. I can see it now, John, a long time ago it was "Your Land and My Land" but thank God it is "Our Land" today. Like Barbara and Capt. Trumbull - I am your rebel and you are my Yankee lover! But now it is our land"'neath a different silver moon."
YOUR FORTUNE BY THE STARS - III: March 21-April 20 - Aries is your sign, Mars your planet. Astral colors, white and rose pink. Positive, theoretical, independent, original, more animal than spiritual, good reasoners, natural leaders, cannot be driven, generous. Admire order and display. Friday the 13th - Tried to make a felt hat and ruined it. But I would have ruined it no matter what the day! So tired so lonely! No one to hold me close. No kind gentle words and all day tomorrow to wait!
A rally! Boys and girls (young men and women) from all over Germantown!* Ed, I was proud to be with the "Church of the Atonement" and we were all proud of you. You deserve the honor you received. God help you to continue on with the the C.E. work! I am glad that I have the privilege of knowing you. John, I did not know that so many people were beginning to connect your name with mine and asking me how John is. Walt wanted to know how you can be a teller if you are only 18 yrs old. Joe is organizing a party to be given here next Friday. Some joke.
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ContextThis is the journal of Virginia Lee Scott, my grandmother, written when she was seventeen and first dating my grandfather, John Arnold Wilson. It's a dairy published by Media Drug Stores and includes space for two entries per day, with facts about the era printed at the bottom, which I have included in italics. Following, 1928, is the journal of John Arnold Wilson, my grandfather, at age nineteen and in love with my grandmother, followed by my grandmother's journal in 1931. Archives
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