It has taken courage to give him up - but I see him in a different light now.
One moment I am attracted and the next repelled. He has ability - for which I admire him! but he wastes it - and in doing so fills me with disgust.
When he towers over me and looks straight into my face it is a though I were hypnotized. He held my hand in his and at the slightest encouragement would have kissed me. After the effort it has cost us both - why rekindle the dying flame.
"Half hoping that he would yet terrified that he might."