John and I have tried to return the mask. We are dueling and like everything else - someday the duel will end and one of us will be victorious. One of us may marry or move far away or die.
I think I need two husbands. One affectionate, thoughtful, generous, providing, educated, who wanted me for a companion; another who would be passionate, artistic, - and a master.
As long as John and I can be "friends" I can meet him on a 50-50 basis but to remove the mask again would make me his slave.