"Either we are very slow workers, ultra-conservative, or we don't yet know quite how we stand with each other." I think it is rather ultra-practicality. To be riding here, there, and the where with a man who is married and my boss - is not wise. He is being very kind to me. I wonder what he expects in return?
I am an admirer or platonic friendships. When I find a friend in a man I like to keep the relationship on that basis but it is almost impossible. They never do a woman a favor without expecting some kind of payment. I hope I am not prude. It is bad enough to lose a beautiful love but it would be worse to have an "affair" with a married man. Fun is fun and I"ll take my fun where I can get it but men don't know where to stop. I wish I were a girl again: when I think of myself a woman it frightens me. I am a coward about life and loving.