You said "yes," but did you really want to kiss me! I want to hate you. I do. But would I be willing to give you up forever? Perhaps I will have to!
What a fool I am! Writing this through tears while you are at a smoker!* I must give you up for the good of both of us. We cannot keep this up forever - a few weeks of absolute perfect happiness and then days like this and nights like last night - restless sleep and dreaming of you. The best things in life are not free. How dearly we pay for a game of love.
*Dictionary.com: an informal gathering, especially of men, for entertainment,discussion, or the like.