My God is my only way. "A lingering kiss, A moment of bliss, Then I wait, I wait."
For the last few weeks my thoughts have hardly been of anything but John. You say the same yourself. Why is it? Perhaps it is because our love is growing deeper - sweeter, moment by moment. My "pal" is now my "life"- all that I want.
My God is my only way. "A lingering kiss, A moment of bliss, Then I wait, I wait."
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Once again you come to me. This time you brought the story of "One Winter Night." That hour from the station until you left my home was the hour that has made my life worth living. I did not know then that love and passion so filled your heart not would I admit to myself that I loved you though I knew I was very happy. And only since then have I realized how really worthwhile the blizzard was.
PHRASES OFTEN MET - IX: in initio (Lat.) - in the beginning, at the outset. in loco (Lat.) - in the place. in memoriam (Lat.) - to the memory of. in nomine (Lat.) - in the name of. in pace (Lat.) - peace. in te, Domine, speravi (Lat.) - in thee, Lord, Have I put my trust. inter se (Lat.) - among themselves. My Mother is my most faithful friend. She is always at hand in times of sickness or trouble; my interests are always her interests. What would I do if Mother did not make my flimpsy, filmy frocks and keep them cleaned and pressed for me. What would I do if Mother did not understand my heart?
Pre-printed in back of 1927 daily journal (with peculiar capitalization!)
AIR 1. Have Fresh Air where you live and work 2. Wear Light, Loose, Porous Clothes 3. Spend part of your time in the Open Air 4. Have Lots of Fresh Air where you Sleep 5. Breathe Deeply and Slowly through the nose FOOD 6. Avoid Eating too Much 7. Do not Eat much Meat and Eggs 8. Eat Various Kinds of Food 9. Eat Slowly HABITS 10. Have your bowels move at least once Each Day 11. Stand, Sit, and Walk Erect 12. Avoid Poisonous Drugs 13. Keep Clean and avoid Catching Diseases ACTIVITY 14. Work hard, but Play and Rest too 15. Be Cheerful and learn not to Worry One second in my sight. Last evening and again tonight I was with you and could not have one of the kisses that you are keeping for me - that I long for! Dad says - the "beast" in man "will out." Likewise - the God in man will out when (he?) respects and cares for the goodness in good women!
PHRASES OFTEN MET - VIII: Hors de combat (Fr.) - out of condition for fighting due to wounds, death or demoralization due to defeat. ice on parle Francais (Fr.) - Here French is spoken. idem (Lat.) - the same. id est (i.e.) (Lat.) - that is. in actu (Lat.) - in reality. in capite (Lat.) - in chief. incognito (Lat.) - unknown. You said last evening that you would be thinking of me all day. I have tried to read, write - I have fiddled about doing nothing but drifting and dreaming. I counted every moment until you called. Why did you go to church? It is a pleasure (and so much more than that) just to sit near you. Why can't I ever say what I feel - because our language expresses thoughts not feelings and feelings are so much deeper than thoughts.
Too ill to go to the bank. John, dear, can it be true that you could not work at the "Y" for thinking of me and you did not go to sleep until after three o'clock this morning! Neither did I, who was in such pain and agony. You felt that something was wrong? You would feel yourself the richest man in the world if you could but bear my pain and sorrows. But how much happier we will always be if we can share each other's pain and joy! You think I should have other dates but you would rather I not tell you until after they are over. Why did you pick me up tonight? You are so strong, and yet - so gentle. If I had died? Not even death could take me from you! And when you put me down - there was nothing to say!
PHRASES OFTEN MET - VII: habeas corpus (Lat.) - "you are to have the body" - a writ of right, by virtue of which any citizen can, when imprisoned, demand to be put on trial. hara-kiri (Jap.) - official suicide in Japan, means "happy dispatch." hoi-polloi (Gr.) - the many, the people of the multitude. honi soit qui mal y pense (Fr.) - "Evil be to him who evil thinks." Another evening with George. Mother is a good guesser. I hardly saw the picture for thinking of John. And wondering if you had a single thought of me. At the "Y" with the "gang" you probably were having too much fun to think of me and I fainted twice within a half an hour after George left. Almost unconscious, I thought only of you. There was no here who could pick me up.
What is a "nice" girl? Some of the girls at the party tonight (or should I say reunion) were "not in my class," I have been told but in no other crowd of sixteen could finer, sweeter girls be found even though they are uneducated and "without schooling." You're right, John, "that's what it is." Companionship, "comradship." We are pals, dear, forever and ever.
PHRASES OFTEN MET - IV: ex officio (Lat.) - by virtue of his office, officially. ex tempore (Lat.) - without premeditation. facsimile (Lat.) - an exact copy. faux pas (Fr.) - a false step, mistake. gerrymander - attempt to divide a state into districts so that one of the parties shall obtain more than its just share of representatives. gratis (Lat.) - free of cost. I never knew but I had always hoped that I was sole possessor of your affections. And still I am glad that you told me, John. If you did not care you would not tell me your inmost secrets and thoughts. You are sure, now. Bob and Walt are sure and Fred is "giving in." But I feel less sure than ever. You have promised to keep your kisses for me. Your last "date" was about 2 months ago? I was angry with myself for doubting but I was right! After "picking up" such trash I don't understand how you could hold me close to you and kiss me - the very next evening. I love you, I want you. God lead us both! If you want me, John, please remember it when you are away from me.
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ContextThis is the journal of Virginia Lee Scott, my grandmother, written when she was seventeen and first dating my grandfather, John Arnold Wilson. It's a dairy published by Media Drug Stores and includes space for two entries per day, with facts about the era printed at the bottom, which I have included in italics. Following, 1928, is the journal of John Arnold Wilson, my grandfather, at age nineteen and in love with my grandmother, followed by my grandmother's journal in 1931. Archives
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